Pictures

I originally had no intention of posting pictures of my hair loss (from radiation treatment) on here or Facebook or anywhere for that matter, but then I was like, "Whatever."  :)  This is just part of the journey.

*Side note: The boys and I were going to have pictures made on Tuesday, March 13th, but a couple of seizures canceled that. So, I moved it back to Friday. I almost scheduled our session for the following Monday, but I knew my hair would probably start falling out soon. It was a good thing I opted for Friday, because by Sunday I was shedding like crazy.

Friday, March 16th
Mommy, Westin, and Nolan

Sunday, March 18th - My part is getting wider, and a mild bald spot starts to appear on the right side of my head.

Monday, March 19th - Significant changes:

Friday, March 23rd - Getting a mohawk is no longer an option:

I now have an extremely large area of baldness. It's such a shame, too, because I really liked my hair. :)  The plan is to shave the rest of it off as soon as I have permission from the doctor. (I think we're going to throw a head-shaving party!)  Then I might look for a cute wig to wear - or not. Either way, I will still have to wear hats whenever I am outside to protect my scalp from the sun.

Let go, let GOD, find joy.

I am stubborn.
I am selfish.
I have a temper.
I have control issues.
I am human.

I love with my whole heart.
I am sensitive.
I cry often.
I trust easily.
I am Me.

I am forgiven.
I am loved.
I have hope.
I am covered by grace.
HE is my Savior.

The real me is ugly. Very ugly.
But I am being chipped away bit by bit,
And one day His glory will be fully revealed in me.

That I might shine His light for all the world to see is my heart's true desire.

Taking the first step seems to be the hardest.

I will write. I will ignore the chills and tremors that start as anxiety creeps in, because God's Word tells me, "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." -Philippians 4:13 (NKJV)

This is my journey, and although I may not ever know its purpose, I do believe it has one. There is more to this brain tumor than just a cool scar and a new haircut. This is just the physical path that I am walking down for now, but it is the battle within that must be fought in order for me to be victorious in the end.

For future reference:
I plan to use this blog more as an online journal than anything else.
Comments are welcome.
Grammar police are not.  ;)